November 24th, 2005
|12:14 am - The Drama Onion|
Saw Rent tonight with some Circles folks. We had a great time, the movie was very well done and almost as emotional as a live performance. It does lack that extra emotional intimate punch of watching people put on the performances and knowing that they have to pull this up so many times a day, so many times a week... but still, worth a view.
On the way back home on the T, Bob and Kimber and I found an envelope sitting, discarded, on the seat next to us. "What's in it?" I asked. "Besides anthrax." Bob picked the letter out, read it, started to make faces, and Kimber and I had to find out why. Short of masking the names, I am reproducing the note verbatim under the cut. It is like peeling back the layers of a giant drama onion. It just keeps getting worse as you go along.
I never thought we would part this way.
First off Im so sorry and I know you can't forgive or forget. I only wish you could or would, I wish you woudlve told me your feelings for me. It does make me happy that I did share mine with you. Your my heart & soul and I miss you very much. My heart is crying and tears won't stop falling, but I'll have get passed it some day.
I guess it was easy for you and probably worked the way you wan'ted it to, and easy way out.
I just wished you had let me in, as I did you. But when one doesn't know what one feels, you dont know, I guess you feel like you were nothing or meant like you were nothing, as I was feeling.
I guess you thought I could tell, but your so good at hiding, so I didn't see.
I always remember the day, you sad If I have no where to go, I could come here with you, and I said yes, you'd always have a home with me and Shirl.
Shirl misses you alot also, she was so excited when you said you might come bye on Friday. She made you a birthday cake. When you didn't come, she was sad.
I also remember when you said you wanted Javier and I said we could raise him together.
At least I know in my heart, I was always good to you, and to Javier. Sorry for some of the spelling's or sloppiness, as I write this my tears won't stop. Someday I guess they will.
Shirley and I will be moving, MJ will go his own way, I'm taking her dad back court for soul custody and back support and alimony. If the soul custody comes through, we'll be leaving Mass. It's the only way I can get over you. Shirl can come back here if she wan'ts when she finishes high school, and goes on to college.
Funny this is being with her dad for 17 yrs. I never cried or hurt like I do for you. But I guess I just need to go it.
You'll always be my heart & soul. I'll always miss you and love you! And as I said I'll lose your # and never call you. That I'm sure will give you relief and make you happy. We'll lose all contact, Shirl's getting a new cell #, MJ's getting a new one also, and I'll have one myself, so it will be easy which seems to be for you anyway. All contact lost.
But you puzzle me, it didn't take you long to find another, on my part you didn't seem to care, so I never knew your feelings, funny thing is I bought that Red Sox jacket for you 2 x's and had to return it. Kinda funny, but the 2nd one was even nicer.
But like a few said you had it your way, you came for skin and leave, you most likely had someone the whole time, you played me well, I never played you. At least I can live with that.
Well my Andy I love you, miss you, and it's time to say goodbye.
Love you always
Forever my heart
you are! My soul
I will award the Brass Figligee with Bronze Oak Leaf Palm to the first person who can fully piece the entire saga together and provide a synopsis, including perhaps a timeline, for all.
|Date:||November 24th, 2005 05:34 am (UTC)|| |
GOOD LORD! She can take custody of your SOUL!
And here I was gonna say I think I know some folks who saw Soul Custody the last time they were in town.
|Date:||November 24th, 2005 05:43 am (UTC)|| |
Didn't they open for Sexual Crossfire?
|Date:||November 24th, 2005 06:54 am (UTC)|| |
No, for Soul Coughing.
seriously though, this letter is one of the sadder things I've seen in a long time. to be left on the subway just like that.
|Date:||November 24th, 2005 03:30 pm (UTC)|| |
My guess is Lena did not leave it on the subway, but likely fell out of her bag during the crowded rush hour Wednesday afternoon. Then, when she realized it was gone, she had no idea where it fell: the T, the sidewalk, the costume store.
Spatch: Keep an eye on the craigslist' missed connections board. Lena may post a MC for the letter.
The envelope had been opened and the letter read at least once. I gathered that Andy had opened it, read it, and left it on the subway. If Lena is to be believed, he wouldn't have bothered to keep the letter anyway (but she still loves him.)
The signoff sounds like Yoda In Love.
As far as I can tell.
Lena gets together with Shirley's dad (not named?)
Has Shirley... teenager at the time of writing
Breaks up with Shirley's dad
Javier's Andy's kid, with another woman, I think.
She buys him a Red Sox jacket and then returns it, and then gets another one and then returns it when
ANDY BREAKS UP WITH HER OMG BC HE HAS OTHER WOMAN
No fucking clue who MJ is. Her roommate, maybe?
They all get new cell phones and move to Massachusetts!
|Date:||November 24th, 2005 09:52 am (UTC)|| |
Lena was married for 17 years. In the end the fights got fewer and further between, they just stopped caring. And after a while they could no longer pretend, they decided that this was no example for their child, Shirley, and that they would try and find happiness in their separate fashions.
Her brother, MJ, met Andy in the basement while doing laundry one day. They got to talking and over the course of things, MJ introduced him to Lena and she was smitten.
Lena was there, she was available and she wanted to care about Andy, he was bored and in a rut. This might be exactly what he needed to kick himself out of the doldrums he'd been in. And well, it wasn't bad.
More and more Lena talked about "us" and "time together" and it made Andy feel both safe and scared. Then, in the recent hurricane, he lost his brother's family except for his nephew, Javier. His parents were taking care of Javier for now, but they were pretty old and he was giving thought to becoming Javier's guardian. Javier was too little to understand what had happened and there would be some tough years ahead.
Lena was really helpful, but he felt like he was living a lie. He met this woman through his job. She was 2/3rds his age, interested in things he remembered from his younger and less responsible days. She made him feel young and free again.
He had to come clean, he was feeling trapped and Lena was making plans. God, this was gonna get complicated, really fast. How was he gonna deal?
MJ found Andy and his new girl making out at a club. He got into a row with him right there, the two of them made quite a scene. No fists, just a lot of yelling. But there it was, now it was no longer a secret, he could come clean. And sure enough, Lena called him on it the next day.
The other girl decided he was too much trouble and she wasn't ready to be hampered with other people's problems, she up and split. He tried to get back together with Lena, they talked about his nephew, about the process of being an adult, and she made it all sound so easy, she'd raised her own daughter (cute kid) and when he was with her it seemed like such a good solution.
He'd turned 40 on Friday and he saw his world closing in on him, forcing him to make decisions. He couldn't face Lena and Shirley. He couldn't face "settling down". So he didn't come home. He got in his car and went off for a long think. That got him to a bar, which got him to a club and once more he ran into MJ. God, it wasn't what MJ thought, he was just trying to clear his head. He really didn't know what to do, man.
When he awoke after having slept through the hangover, he realized that maybe it was for the best. Lena deserved better. He knew he wasn't what she was looking for.
And when he got home, he found the envelope under his door. At last, the lie was over. He pulled the Thanksgiving tickets out from the drawer, tucked the letter in his coat pocket, closed the door and headed off for the holiday. He would deal with it all when he got back.
WITH SPECIAL GUEST APPEARANCE BY THE CAT TOWN MADRIGAL SINGERS
|Date:||November 29th, 2005 03:44 pm (UTC)|| |
*howls with laughter*
Oh, holy crap. You've got yourself a project.
XOXO Lena, being a descendant of Xenu, was not used to Earth alcohol and drugs; so, being drunk and coked up, she got into a fivesome with MJ, Javier, Andy and Shirl.
Later, she was discovered by Xenu and blasted into oblivion, but not before she could write the letter. Unfortunately, her floating thetan invaded Andy and the ensuing thetan-antithetan reaction dissolved both instantly.
MJ and Shirl are Lena's kids; MJ has just finished high school (he may be from a relationship preceding Shirl's father) and so is getting his own place; Shirly is leaving with Lena. Javier is Andy's kid from a previous relationship. Shirl was more into Andy than he was into her, but in the breakup he tried to pin it all on her and she believed him.
The bit about the birthday cake? SO SAD.
|Date:||November 28th, 2005 06:14 pm (UTC)|| |
You should send that to Found Magazine.